Saturday, August 9, 2025

This one is on Jonah

 A while back, Jonah asked why I don't post anything anymore. He knew I had written plenty of things. (there's a drawer full) I really didn't have an answer for him, although I think deep down, I knew. When I write, it's very a very personal thing and throwing something out into the world can be a very nerve-wracking experience.  And to top that off with nothing but crickets in return, you begin to wonder if your writings are just that bad and no one wants to tell you. (shoulder shrug emoji) I see and hear other people write and I think, "man, if only i was that good.  Lately I've been going through 49 Winchester's discography. I love the way Isaac Gibson writes. Just so much emotion, not only in the songs, but in myself just listening. If you're unfamiliar with 49 Winchester, I highly suggest you take a look and listen. 

Back to me, occasionally, someone will ask if I still Blog. "Not in a while but I might start again." Over the years, I thought I'd start again but life always takes me in another direction. Now I stand at the crossroads of Staying in the Shadows Lane and Stepping Out into the Sun Boulevard. 

Here's a step into the Sun.


3/27/23

"Lunch Table"

Sittin' 'round the lunch table 

listening to Billy Joe's latest conquest story

With detail he has everyone tuned into his words

He looked at me and said " You wouldn't know anything about that"

My answer was "You're right, Son, but, let me tell you what I do know

A good woman's love, a life built together, 30 years of marriage, more ups and downs

than you'll ever know and as for the rest ...

ain't any of your damn business"


3/27/23

"Go on and Tell Them"

I can't remember what step I'm on

As I try to put together what's gone

I want to say I'm ashamed of all the nights 

that I kissed that bottle

rather than kiss you goodnight

I have so much regret for the times I

didn't take you out on the town

but instead chose to close the bar down

Now when I see our friends

they all look away to no end 

When "sorry" is all I want to say

It seems when I get close

You go on and tell them

Something they already know 


Even though rumors fly

you won't see me cry 

I accept who I was 

and try to walk as Jesus does

I've got a new job

but my happiness you try to rob

When you show up at the jobsite

and try to argue and fight

So I just walk away

But to my boss you have so much to say

And you go on and tell

something he already knows


Why are you stuck there 

you said you didn't care

You found another guy 

maybe that was a lie

I picked up and moved on

Switched from waning sunsets to morning dawns

I have a brand life

and I'm not ready for a new wife

But she loves me anyway

and when you see me with her 

you have so much to say

And you go on tell her 

something she already knows



6/11/23

"Best Friends"

Hug and kisses

Dresses and wiggles

Phone calls in the middle of the night

Hands held 

Tears wiped

Standing in honor on marital rite

Lifelong

in harmonious song

never alone


6/19/23

"Born to Conquer the World"

Born minutes apart 

together from the start 

Two so different but

two so similar 

Can't say what or who to blame

as to why life and plans unfurled 

when we were born to conquer the world

Different approaches and different methods

led to different perspectives and different directions

both happy and at peace with their lives 

the world wasn't theirs to conquer

they now realize


9/1/24

"Jealousy Rises"

As your jealously rises

so does your hate and despises

In your mind, lies become truth

and truth become lies

You are toxic

Trying to spread your disease

But as for me, I'm good

I have long forgotten you with ease

and if by chance

your venom reaches my ears

and your smears I do hear

i will just laugh 

at you and your chosen miserable path


10/13/24

"I ran for God"

I ran from God 

I ran as far as I could

I got lost in the forest amongst the tall tree wood

I bled from the self-inflicted thicket

and turned black and blue from the 

internal beating from my mind

Whilst I ran i didn't realize

 that God was by my side stride for stride

Awaiting me to ask for help

and reach out for him to heal


10/19/24

"Seth and Lottie"

At night I prayed

and days I dreamed

Long I awaited and now

my heart is full 

In your eyes, the past is forgotten

and the future beams bright

And though I didn't know it,

I've known you my entire life

With your pinky in my hand,

here i stand 

protector, provider and infinite guider

Your daddy lost in your eyes


10/24/24

"Empty Nested"

A heartbeat in a silent house

replaces pitter pat footsteps

Thoughts of future dreams

that have become present

clash with memories of the past

and days you hoped

would always last


11/14/24

"Sunk"

A gust of disgust soaked in lust

A face in a place that no face should face

with no way to erase

You sunk in a funk 

with junk that stunk

Eyes that die with no kiss goodbye

You mumble, fumble, stumble and crumble

and kicked up dust that isn't just

and you bust as it's lost in the gust


11/20/24

'When Sin Wins"

When Sin Wins

The weight dictates your fate,

the chances you take and mistakes you make 

Lies become real and the truth becomes fake

The remorse comes as you lie awake

and forgiveness and redemption 

see so far away


12/5/24

"A Moment Ago"

I had a thought a moment ago 

then it was gone 

replaced by your face, aura and soul

In your presence, I'm tunneled visioned 

and all senses are awakened

There is only you for me 

to love eternally

I'm so heavenly gifted that you are mine

so never shall I pine 

For the years before and those to come

my biggest joy, is being one


7/2/25

"Second Chance"

My second chance

it's out of my hands

I've done what she asked

But I can't outrun my past

I sit with my hands empty and folded

waiting for her to grab and take hold

Is this really a second chance

or a cruel punishment dance

Either way I will sit and wait

for whatever second chance she gives

will be my fate


circa August 2021

'Untitled 2021"

the pain

like an endless rain

soaking to the bone

never relenting 

loneliness

void of happiness

love received 

but not perceived 

remedy searching

rather than self-probing

finally, the clouds clear 

and you're still standing there

the sunshine

that's always been mine

Drying the crying

like clothes on the line


 

And that is all that's in the notes on my phone. I may tackle the drawer next.